I need a rest..

Never hope for too much.. cause honestly i am very disappointed.. but for some reason i predicted it.. i'm tired.. very.. it just means 'fate' doesn't like me a lot.. i feel that i have been walking around in circles.. and for some reason each circle i walk i get more and more lost.. is there not such thing as a way out? i always have been telling me that tomorrow will be better.. but seriously which tomorrow has been better? that is like the worst lie ever.. the effects of that lie is not only fading away.. is like a poison that makes everything much more worst.. more worst then you can ever imagine.. i really wish i could be drown in my own dreams.. and never wake up.. the words i always hear is that i will find the way.. where is the way when i can't even see myself.. is like darkness everywhere.. now i just hope that tomorrow's break i can see everything much more clearer.. i need a break myself..