Forgotten?

Haven't been writing here.. I guess i really can't keep the habit of writing how i feel down... What i usually do is keep everything to myself.. until it disappear somehow.. it will come back eventually... still i find it hard to tell anyone.. and i also don't have the habit to write it here... keeping everything to myself seem to come to me so naturally.. maybe it takes time? i don't know.. But i will try.. try to type everything here.. i just need time... i guess...

Choke up with unsaid words... but then maybe i wont ever get to say it ever.
Cause walking away might be better.

Maybe..

If i were to disappear suddenly..
I doubt anyone would notice..
In this world, i have no idea who cares and who doesn't..
Why is reality so cruel..
If..
icouldchangeeverythingmaybeiwouldreallymaybeiwouldforabettermeandabetterworldaworldwithnomorecruelrealityjustapeacefullworld..
Maybe..
I really don't know..

The unknown path

Is there a way that i could stop worrying about everything?
A way to not worry about what comes next?
I'm tired of dreaming a dream that won't come true..
Everything just seems so impossible..
Everytime when you think things are finally going my way, it just crash infront of me..
To get disappointed everytime you walk down a new path..
Sometimes i really want to shout I GIVE UP!
Seriously!.. I really do!
So i have no idea why do i bother walk on..

Keep running forward.!!

laying here.

Make friends with your "evil" side.

the reason for the " " marks is because they arent that Evil,

they do things for a purpose.

either because you suppress your emotions too much,

or the way you act hurt you or others.. they become that "evil"

but then maybe instead of calling it evil, try to understand it.

It's purpose of existence..

Negotiate things with them,

talk to them,

most of all be friends with them. :D

Feel it all in you.

Feel your own emotions,

whatever comes by,

question them.

What makes you feel them.

why are they here anyways?

what to learn from them?