I need a rest..

Never hope for too much.. cause honestly i am very disappointed.. but for some reason i predicted it.. i'm tired.. very.. it just means 'fate' doesn't like me a lot.. i feel that i have been walking around in circles.. and for some reason each circle i walk i get more and more lost.. is there not such thing as a way out? i always have been telling me that tomorrow will be better.. but seriously which tomorrow has been better? that is like the worst lie ever.. the effects of that lie is not only fading away.. is like a poison that makes everything much more worst.. more worst then you can ever imagine.. i really wish i could be drown in my own dreams.. and never wake up.. the words i always hear is that i will find the way.. where is the way when i can't even see myself.. is like darkness everywhere.. now i just hope that tomorrow's break i can see everything much more clearer.. i need a break myself..

Hopes..

Those feelings are coming back again.. should i welcome them back? should i chase it away? what should i do? i have no clue.. sometimes.. i really wish.. my dreams and imaginations were true.. sometimes i wish i could be in the anime world.. sometimes i wish everything would just go well for once.. for some reason all that only made my determination to create a imaginary world stronger.. a place where you can choose to be any character you see in the anime.. a place where you can restart over again and again.. a place where things a much more kinder.. a place where everything is just so beautiful... a endless blue sky... everything under one sky... maybe i could make it true.. something like sword art online.. a virtual world.. and endless types of games, experience.. a love story... a pirate's adventure... a mage life... a mafia world.. a places where everything and anything can happen.. a place where is all about you..

I want to disappear..

Sometimes.. when i think about it.. it is actually not that bad.. i'm afraid i will miss that place.. i really have no idea what i want or what i really need.. why are these feeling keep coming to me.. why does it get more and more confusing as days goes by.. i thought it will be clearer on what i need to do.. what i must do.. but i end up more and more confuse each day.. what is it this world want from me? what is it that you people want from me? what is it that my life want from me? tell me! if i can i will give.. i'm tired.. and i need a break.. a freaking long break.. to keep me away from my thoughts.. from my hopes.. from my dreams.. from this torture.. from this nightmare.. from life.. from myself.. please leave me be.. leave me alone.. i want to hide a corner where no one knows.. just treat me like i never existed.. maybe everything will be better then..

Dark end.

I will turn. I will run. i will burrow into the darkness. i will slowly.. walk to my end.

The Storm

Everything in a whirl. so tired.. so confusing. i think im already lost. it's painful. inside. outside.. my mind is like a room of mess up pages... Revenge. Redemption will be more befitting.

COMPLAIN!!!

Okay i have a lot to complain.. really a lot.. till i have no idea where to start or how to start.. but let's just conclude everything.. Person A is irritating.. Person B is annoying.. Person C Doesn't even keep promises.. Person D (For you info i am a human no a machine).. Person E you think i am god? how would i know everything.. == Person E don't blame me for everything.. Person F seriously don't give me that.. i so want to punch you.... Person G thanks for helping!! :) Person H you have a scary face i don't want talk to you again.. okay i know there are a lot more people but i am lazy typing out all my complain cause i know is not of any use.. and if i were to type anymore i am afraid i would name out every single one of them.. so i will stop here.. thank you for listening to my complain.. I'm super pissed!

Poison..

I don't know why..
I really don't..
Why is it that every year i seem to get this poison..
This poison is annoying...
Irritating...
Seriously, someone please save me..
I don't want to get torture by this poison all over again..
Every year is different people..
But is the same poison..
Oh my god..
Seriously i had enough!!!
This is the last time!
Please let it be the last time.. :(