Angelique: White Wing Memoirs Ending

Hello~

How long has it been since i post something here.. very long i think~ Oh and by the way i like the changes! I have been away from Singapore. After i come back, a lot has happened.. A lot has changed.. so have i. I get jealous easily... I get angry easily.. why?.. i really don't know.. I tried to control.. I tried... i really did.... but it gets harder and harder... why are you making my life so difficult.. i'm tired.. really.. yes i like you.. but so what.. you don't bother.. and what's worst having a friend that make you jealous.. how nice.. though i know is not her fault.. but still.. you don't have to do this to me.. it hurts you know.. my English is turning from bad to worst.. my Chinese is improving but in a Malaysia way... my Malay.. never good to start with.. "it" knows me, but i don't know "it".. haiz~

Sound of Water 【3D sound】

HURTS - The Water (with Lyrics)

I want to slide into the ground and dissapear.....argh whatever.. it's pain pain pain. it's like being locked up in a huge dark cellar all by yourself. hearing voices... echoing from time to time.. with a knife in hand.. and then some... remains.. of what looks like you killed your close ones..

It may not turn out fantastic, but still i will try.

but sometimes i feel so tired. i just feel like lying down and just wait..

im cautious because i know im not that strong. so if anything were to come down on me. i might not be able to handle it all.

and also because i really feel i cant rely on anybody at all. like the wouldnt have probably understand.. and like my parents or life have taught me.

that showing your weak side might just be giving someone else a chance to harm you even more then you are already injured..

I guess in a way i am trying to keep myself alive.. but then sometimes i truely wonder if it would might have been easier to die.

but guess i am a true sadist of myself. just keep telling myself.. that things will become better if i keep working on it. but i know inside..

that i dont believe that it will come true.

living has taught me how vulnerable a person can be and how helpless it can seem.. yet maybe i want to try, till one day, i lay on my own death bed.

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